How long O Lord, how long?
How much more can we take, O God?
David’s seen his son lost to rebellious death,
And we ache with our hopes run aground.
We ache and see a bay of ashes
Tear-sea, waves and no calming rhythm,
No loving silence, no furious spray which tastes of life.
We bend and crumple beneath the many weights.
How long O Lord, how long?
Will we dwell inside ourselves,
See unlucky omens,
Not able to speak
Or meet each others’ gazes?
How much more can we take?
How much more of this,
And whatever more comes tomorrow,
Each new gap in mercy,
Or so it seems?
We sob upon the bay of ashes,
Grey sand and greyer skie
Giddy with luck,
I am dancing and discover that I can dance.
How rare the delight,
To find a touch where I do not tense,
A person to share all,
My hand on your waist,
I cannot believe your eyes.
Maybe ascribe it not to luck but to blessing,
A river falling,
A sea of love added to
By newly found tributaries,
Little gifts,
An outpouring
[Two souls, one night by the river’s run,
The old mill,
Telling all].
Or perhaps destiny,
To reconnect two threads ever so close but never yet overlapping,
Taken each far from home,
But meant to be entwined.
I could say only love,
Not deserved, nor wilfully won by I,
Unexpectedly born,
I can scarce b
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Give me a sign of if I have chosen
A right way
For these years,
Or if I am not worthy.
Give me some sense if this is the beginning or the end,
When it feels like endless middle.
Adjudge me to be ready,
Or leave me behind,
All I say is let me know – and while I ask this
Off-guard,
In an unequal pattern, overstretched and underused,
I say too much, too soon:
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It makes sense
I identified as a traitor for so long,
And then by self
Self-focus, selfishness
To firmly betray
For the sake of avoiding feared outcomes,
It makes sense. Does it matter if
It is true?
But we seem to live in a world
Where there is nothing in the present, o
One thorn reminds of being wrapped in brambles
The old pain, the old wounds,
That felt inescapable – that held me fast,
And kept me from moving with any swiftness,
Wound me down to gasping, uncomprehending exhaustion.
And memory erupts with the belief that
Once again, I am trapped,
Even as I ease the thorn from my palm,
Rise lionlike once again.
Fear insists that one step back means all is lost,
And what I have lost is a vision
Of where I am now, of how different
A single thorn is from many,
A single setback is from total blockage,
A single mistake is from the ill-chosen path.
My body burns with flames and I think I am lost to t
Remember Then What It Is That You Were Saved From by tetrarchangel, literature
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Remember Then What It Is That You Were Saved From
They might say, in the end, that we saved each other
Sure, only God saves,
As with all things, we’re talking some way down the line,
The secondary, the tertiary, the helicopter and the boat,
At the moment all the stories
Are notes in small journals, held by us,
Some balladeers we make, telling each other
Stories of only weeks ago.
‘What have you been doing for the last year or so?’
I was asked, and I said ‘growing up’ because
Poetry is for adolescents and they’re eternal
These days [they’ll die in the future, they died in the past, but
In the now, they grow incrementally-eternally]
“Time pr
Oh say nothing,
And hold every word,
In increasing internal hollow
So no sound will ring
In a room
That encompasses all.
Find connections in
Some codex of restoration
That tie up insufficiently
With her, and her, and
Experience incapability and inability
Fear for fear
But say nothing, and hold them closer.
Realise femininity, that
Sitting down is for rooms with chairs and couches
And notepads, and that other sort of listening
Listen to her as her movements touch the air,
The raw, the burning, sings out
Listen, say nothing, hold close.
To tell honestly,
Of the reality of my heart,
To speak and sing and use words, those fortunate words,
How I come to know my love,
How I come to understand:
This stolen idea, to breathe only
Secrets and secret names
Forms that only we shall know, and answer only to
When in the other’s voice.
That we mark each other apart: you are my special one,
You are the only one
You are the one called…
Oh! Darling
That I cross this place
To find you,
[a wolf at your door;
echoes years later]
To find each snaring brier
Passed, and passable, and past.
And journeying
On roads afar,
After our journey begun,
Saw your domain and its seams
The s
I cannot see anything as it is. A mire
Of expectation, that is nothing to do with the real
Experience, of feeling
All is lost
When nothing was ventured.
To feel the utmost tumult, despite
The skin of the water unpierced by stones
Oh to hurt like this again
To love, as the only answer,
To unbidden pain,
To unworthy, undue suffering that comes from nothing.
When you draw nothing from the well
It will reveal the blackest poisoned water
That every failure going before
Has written a negativity beyond reason, beyond knowing,
That rises now, from misty seafoam,
A corrupt and false resonance that draws
One’s heart onto the rocks –
Haphephobia – I forge relationships
Of immense intensity
With people I will never know,
And can never meet,
Who exist only in aether, and
Are given flesh by a libidinous mind. No contact
No contact, no touch,
For I know that I’m compelling
If all I have is the
Page
And my words
To lead the way.
Aphephobia – A monastic cell
Whose door opens into
A brothel where I’m the madam,
An abbess of one and a
Procuress of infinite possibility.
There is a rule of no touching but it counts differently:
Don’t touch my heart and don’t move me,
Don’t caress a strand of sympathy.
Haphophobia – I crafted
St. Michael and All Angels by tetrarchangel, literature
Literature
St. Michael and All Angels
So it was about four years ago and I would call it a lifetime
If that wasn't offensive
And I know I don't mourn like a pagan
But I miss you
You're not a pressed flower
You're not frozen
You're a garden, and it's summer
I had to come before I went
Had to be honest
I'm going where we were both going to be
And you're with me
A bit
The dirt on my hands never washed
Earth and the earthman
And the heart and the hippocampus
It's tranquil till it's not
Nothing set in stone
There's just a wooden cross
Soldier
We'd fought all sorts of things in that same corps
On the same journey
The same mission, royal commission
So so long as I'm struggling I know